first impression

the end.

blinkbabe182618@aol.com — Tue, 07 Jan 2003 03:55:41 GMT

of this LJ for good this time.

please add: theartofsilence to your LJ friends list!

byyeee

I will never understand you, when will I stop trying

blinkbabe182618@aol.com — Sun, 05 Jan 2003 07:59:57 GMT

werd.

i waaaanntt a booooyyfrrriieennndd.a cute smart one.that has nice hair.and likes incubus.and will make me laugh.and will listen to me. and have intelligent conversations with me.and will look at the stars with me.and tell me they need me.and is sweet[very].and will go get coffee with me.and will sit and listen to music for hours.and talk about everything.and tell me they miss me.and will go to shows.and will put up with me talking about brandon boyd 24/7.and is nice.oh and last but not least, will never cheat on me. eveerr.

ok. i know that i am pathetic, and basically just put a want ad on livejournal. but no, i do not fucking care. ha~!

[cheers]
Trish

here's an idea.

blinkbabe182618@aol.com — Sun, 29 Dec 2002 20:13:28 GMT

please-

just bury me alive.

yours truely-
Patricia M.Greenan

hullo love(s)

blinkbabe182618@aol.com — Thu, 26 Dec 2002 21:50:24 GMT

christmas. done and over with. yay

i got my incubus hoodie,so i got everything i wanted.

hmm tomorrow i get paid. so i think i will purchase my shoes and coat.

work was extremely boring today.

justin timberlake is hot.
john mayer has very nice lips.
(realizations after watching mtv for an hour or so)

oh super. chinese food for dinner = )

call me you fags. 774-6361

[cheers]
trish

ha

blinkbabe182618@aol.com — Sun, 22 Dec 2002 20:58:58 GMT

my dad and i actually got along for two hours. wow
we carried on a converstion without arguing.
i am in shock.

but geez the stores were off the hizzo. angry shoppers everywhere.

i'm pretty bored right now.
i'll go wrap some presents i suppose.

[cheers]
Tricia

the summer.

blinkbabe182618@aol.com — Sun, 22 Dec 2002 08:52:42 GMT

the best three months of the year in my opinion.
i watched my video tape that me and my friends from up north made, and i miss them so much! it sucks only seeing them once in a while. but gives me something to look forward too.

i got my proofs back today for my senior pictures. the only ones that i actually like are the black and white ones. but i don't want to have all black and white ones to pass out. i have to go retake some of them too.(dammit!)cuz my mom doesn't like them.

so christmas break. not expecting it to be that exciting. someone change that! haha..i'm really not all that excited for christmas either. it's so over-rated. in my family especially. kind of sick if you ask me. what's everyone doing for new years?i need to find something to do!

hmm what else..oh yeah..does anyone want to go snowboarding/skiing over break sometime? please! i have only went once so far this season. so lets go!

insomnia, damn you!

[cheers]
trish

blinkbabe182618@aol.com — Fri, 20 Dec 2002 03:16:41 GMT

does anyone want to go see, bowling for columbine or jackass over christmas break?

do you understand?

blinkbabe182618@aol.com — Fri, 20 Dec 2002 02:29:58 GMT

[my name is]: Tricia
[in the morning i am]: pissed, cuz i want to go back to sleep
[all i need is]: incubus, chocolate, and coffee
[love is]: something i hope to experience sooner or later
[im afraid of]: clowns,spiders,and heights
[i dream about]: moving to california

-H A V E .Y O U. E V E R . .
[pictured your crush naked?]: oh yeah! uhh
[actually seen ur crush naked]: lol, no.
[been in love]: nope
[cried when someone died]: yeah
[lied]: if necessary

-W H I C H . I S . B E T T E R-
[coke or pepsi]: pepsi
[flowers or candy]: yuck
[tall or short]: short

-W I T H .T H E. O P P O S I T E. S E X-
[what do u notice first?]: hair! long hair. woooo
[last person u slow danced with]: not too sure on that one
[worst question to ask]: i donno

-W H O-
[makes u laugh the most?]: everyone. i laugh a lot
[makes you smile]: ; ) you
[gives u a funny feeling when u see them]: oh U know
[do you have a crush on?]: guess
[has a crush on u?]: uh no one that i know of
[easiest to talk to]: eh

-D O. Y O U .E V E R-
[sit on the internet all day waiting for someone special to I.M. u?] nah, they won't anyway
[save aol/aim conversations]: yes, i am guilty
[wish u were a member of the opposite sex]: noo
[cried because of someone saying something to u]: it's happened

-H A V E .Y O U .E V E R-
[fallen for ur best friend]: noo
[been rejected]: yes
[rejected someone]: sorta.
[used someone]: noo
[been cheated on]: noo
[done something u regret]: who hasn't?

-W H O .W A S .T H E .L A S T. P E R S O N-
[u talked to on the phone]: my brother
[hugged]: i honestly don't know
[u instant messaged]: andy
[u laughed with]: the crazy people at work.

-D O .Y O U-
[color ur hair]: yep
[ever get off the damn computer]: nope
[habla espanol]: ha no.

-D O .Y O U / / A R E .Y O U-
[smoke cigarettes]: no
[obsessive]: with some things
[could u live without the computer?]: noo!
[how many peeps are on ur buddylist?]: 136
[what's your favorite food?]: ice cream
[whats ur favorite fruit?]: strawberries
[drink alchohol?]: not in a few months
[like watching sunrises or sunset]: oohh yes
[what hurts the most? physical pain or emotional pain?]: emotional. for sure
[trust others way too easily?]: no way, it takes a lot for me to trust you

-N U M B E R-
of times i have had my heart broken? : wasn't broke. just damaged. once
hearts i have broken? : ha, none that i know of
of boys i have kissed? : threeee!
of continents i have lived in? : 1
of drugs taken illegally? : 1
of tight friends? : as of right now. i really don't have any
of cd's that i own? : 200? more? i dunno
of scars on my body?: two that i can think of

i am addicted to these damn surveys.
i'm watching this brand new dvd. and it is pretty nifty

i wanna be in a band.

disregard this post

blinkbabe182618@aol.com — Thu, 19 Dec 2002 03:27:09 GMT

6 more months..

6 more months..

almost there.

-freedom-

it seems all i think about lately is getting away. part of me wants it more than anything. my main goal in life is to experience as much as i can. i think that's what your life is made out of, experiences. warren michigan..yeah, lots of ways to experience new things here. just michigan period. but there is really nothing i can do now..having school and work and all, i can't just get up and go and not come back for a few weeks. maybe i will just say fuck college and get a car and travel to different places for a year. wouldn't that be nice? : ) yes. too bad it's not very reasonable.

winter makes me want to get out of here even more. when its cold, the world just seems kind of dead to me. no life in anything. cold weather is a downer,i think for most people atleast. when its the spring/summer things start comming back to life, and psychologically i think people do too.

this summer. i'm getting the fuck out of here.
atleast for a little while.
who's comming with me?

i'm serious..so start saving your money kids.

and she called out a warning..*don't ever let life pass you by*

[cheers]
Tricia

goldfish!

blinkbabe182618@aol.com — Sun, 15 Dec 2002 18:32:55 GMT

well everyone i have two new pets. yes, thats right, *two*
and they need names. [they are goldfish by the way] so give me some ideas!

welcome to existence

blinkbabe182618@aol.com — Wed, 11 Dec 2002 23:27:29 GMT

the thought of knowing someone cares about me and needs me.

that's all i really want..

blinkbabe182618@aol.com — Tue, 10 Dec 2002 05:01:41 GMT

take those fucking blinders off your eyes!

i'm having the best day ever!

blinkbabe182618@aol.com — Mon, 09 Dec 2002 22:29:18 GMT

woke up late.
D- in biology.
late for work.
bitched at by mom and dad. (at the same time, yeah bring it on.)
mail comes...grand valley envelope....
sorry, you suck and aren't accepted.
sorry, your plans for the next year won't be happening.
and we really could give one shit that you are sitting on your computer, crying your eyes out to your LJ. and what the fuck? i am so pissed. if you dont have a 3.4 or above, sorry you aren't getting in to college, or atleast a decent one you had your heart set on. and no one give me this bull shit of go to macomb. I AM NOT GOING TO FUCKING MACOMB. all that shit is,is high school all over again. well hey it's closer to my house i suppose?

oh, and the best thing about today.
i have no car or money to get the fuck out of here for a while. (my house)

i came to the realization today,(well no not today, i realized it a long time ago) that tower high school is full of the lamest kids i have ever met in my life. all the stupid fucking bitches in our grade. i can't stand them. parading around like they own the fucking place and can say or do whatever they want, to whoever they want. i have had it with high school. and can not wait until the day i get the hell out of there. there is a select few of you that i do care to see. but the rest of them. i hope i never see again, ever. it just annoys me so much, how some people in our class almost have this fear of others. they won't talk to certian people because they classify them as the "popular kids". and it's such bullshit. we are all people here. no one is better than anyone else. and high school totally takes that idea and rams it in the ground. some kids just get this huge ego, like they are "the shit". i have seen so many people, who i once said were "my friends" change so much, from freshman to senior year. and it is just so sad, how everyone can't talk to each other and just get along. but no, that would be too hard. being genuinely nice is something far to hard for the fucking assholes at our school. and why i let this bother me so much you ask? i just don't like seeing other people get treated like crap, by people who think they own the place, and you for that matter.

yes i am pissed off. it's ok, really.

so lets hear it, what do you think of your school?

blinkbabe182618@aol.com — Sun, 08 Dec 2002 07:00:48 GMT

Blue come over
Born a joneser
And the cops roll out the radar
And shoot devious grins
Another day begins
*I want someone to know me*
*Maybe tell me who I am*
Cause I've faced down my demons
And cried out to a god
A god I've never seen
Lights
And the world darkens around me
Strange friends all surround me
New ideas in my head start to burn
Dropped out of schools cause of things I never learned
And the world darkens around me
World darkens around me
*I want you to love me*
Like you did before you knew me
And I never thought there'd be any help
For somebody like me
A vacancy
Sing
And the world darkens around me
Strange friends all surround me
New ideas in my head start to burn
-Trust no one is the one thing that I learned-
And the world darkens around me
World darkens around me
Bring me the sun
Slide off the moon
Yeah, you better get home soon
Slide off the moon
There's no hope for people like you and me
Bring me the sun, cause I slide off the moon
.Bring me the sun.

your numb to the world that you know

blinkbabe182618@aol.com — Fri, 06 Dec 2002 03:57:37 GMT

what is livejournals deal? i think i posted comments like 5 times on some of your LJ's. please forgive me.

tonite was bidwells show, very nice. lots of people came..so that was cool.

it's strange that even when you are in a big group of people, that you still feel so alone (?)
and all the lovely couples around you, well that doesn't make it any better.

flickerstick has a new cd comming out.

oh to all of you who are driving with me to the brand new show..please be at my house by 5:00. thanks

well biology and pathophysiology are calling my name.

bye

blinkbabe182618@aol.com — Thu, 05 Dec 2002 05:29:51 GMT

1) If you could be instantly fluent in one other language that you currently do not read or speak, which would it be?
greek

2) If you could have the starring role in any film already made, what would it be? marion, from requiem for a dream. ok. so she is a crack whore. but you know, jared leto is her boyfriend.

3) If you could receive one small package this very moment, who would it be from and what would be in it? it would be a small envelope from grand valley. congrats, your in.

4) if you could own one painting from any collection in the world but were not able to sell it, which work of art would you select? nah

5) If you were instantly able to play one musical instrument perfectly that you never have played before, what would it be? the piano or guitar

6) If you could posses one supernatural ability, what would it be? to be able to read minds, or be invisible

7) If you had to choose the most valuable thing you ever learned what would it be? can't say. i have a lot of learning to do.

8) If you could have only one piece of furniture in your house, what would it be? a bed. definitely

9) if you could read the private diary of someone you know personally, whose diary would it be? bretts

10) If you could have one person you know as your slave for one month, who would it be? hehe well..

11) If you could choose the way you will die, how would you want it to happen? in my sleep.

12) If you could wake up tomorrow to learn that the major newspaper headlines were about you, what would you want them to say? "tricia greenan, who's that?"

13) if you won the lottery, what is the first thing you would do? scream. really really loud.

14) If you could choose the music at your funeral, what would it be, and who would play it? geez, thats kind of a creepy question.

15) if you could take away the vocal cords of any person, who would it be? gwen stefani

16) If you had to describe your idea of the perfect mate, how would you do it? they would be intelligent, loving, funny, sweet, be able to carry on a conversation, trust-worthy, mysterious, and cute.

17) If you had to have a person redecorate your room, who would you pick to do it? brandon boyd

18) if you had to choose the worst home you've ever lived in, which one was it? i've liked all the houses i've lived in, besides some of the neighbors, it was all good.

19) If you could have prevented one thing from happening between you and a friend, what would it have been? i would have prevented the distance between me and a few people.

20) If you could learn the total number of hours you have spent in your life doing one thing, what would it be? probably how many hours i have been online through-out my life.

21) If you had to describe yourself as a child in one word, what would it be? weird

22) if you could own a single prop from any film ever made what would you choose? u know

snow!

blinkbabe182618@aol.com — Mon, 02 Dec 2002 22:17:52 GMT

the woody doesn't handle very well in the snow.

but i like the snow. it's very calm and pretty.

well time to go get my ass kicked at the koRn show...

bye bye everyone. and drive safely

blinkbabe182618@aol.com — Sun, 01 Dec 2002 05:25:50 GMT

would everyone please just stop.

no wonder everyone is on an anti-livejournal kick.

everyones entries are just complaining about everyone else.(well not all, but most)

-please, no one take any sort of offense to this- i don't want to start any more "drama".

a new color to paint the world

blinkbabe182618@aol.com — Fri, 29 Nov 2002 06:01:44 GMT

thanksgiving really didn't feel like "thanksgiving".

maybe due to the fact that half of my family was missing? yeah thats probably it.

tomorrow i am getting up [well actually today] bright and early. you know, it is the "biggest shopping day of the year". and *i* love shopping. i plan on getting my snowboard/etc..on sale.

me and dan are going up to boyne mt. on saturday. should be good times. this break is going to be over before i know it though. = /

i am starting to get a little anxious about getting my letter from grand valley. they sent me one stating that they had "received my application and were processing it" and that was like two weeks ago! i really want to get in, badly. i just have this plan of next year. its being at GV, living in a dorm, meeting new people, etc. i want to be in college now. right now.

this sucks.

goodnite everyone, and happy belated thanksgiving.

blinkbabe182618@aol.com — Tue, 26 Nov 2002 01:26:11 GMT

this isn't gonna go anywhere

hello

blinkbabe182618@aol.com — Sun, 24 Nov 2002 19:33:45 GMT

last nite i saw "the ring", and it was pretty good i must say. not as scary as i thought it would be, but good. the weirdest part was when the little girl comes crawling out of the TV. whew.

today i don't know what i'm doing..i want wendys though. yum.

only two days of school this week! yes.

adios
trish

ok.

blinkbabe182618@aol.com — Sat, 23 Nov 2002 06:21:14 GMT

i have to start taking chances in my life. i'm never going to get anywhere..or get what i want, unless i do. its just that i have this huge fear of doing so. rejection. disappointment. two negatives of taking chances..but it happens. what can you do?

but i should try and look at the positive side of things for once, because the outcome isn't always negative.
your life is as good as you make it i guess..i need some change, i'll get it eventually...i hope.

so here i am

blinkbabe182618@aol.com — Fri, 22 Nov 2002 00:26:38 GMT

apartment.

end of december. (?)

lets hope all goes as planned.

warning/the woody is gonna die

blinkbabe182618@aol.com — Wed, 20 Nov 2002 00:54:34 GMT

haha the woody died in front of waynes house. me and briskey got a good laugh out of it thats for sure.

but my dad came to the rescue. and woody was revived.
jonesy also tried to help..thanks man.

that van seriously hates me though. i'm the only one who has had it die on them..has it ever happened to mom? no. has it ever happened to dad? no. tricia on the other hand..ha like 10 times now.

blinkbabe182618@aol.com — Tue, 19 Nov 2002 22:17:36 GMT

.enjoy life.